God is real, and He is good

We believe in one God,

the Father almighty,

maker of heaven and earth,

of all things visible and invisible.

And in one Lord Jesus Christ,

the only Son of God,

begotten from the Father before all ages,

God from God,

Light from Light,

true God from true God,

begotten, not made;

of the same essence as the Father.

Through him all things were made.

For us and for our salvation

he came down from heaven;

he became incarnate by the Holy Spirit and the virgin Mary,

and was made human.

He was crucified for us under Pontius Pilate;

he suffered and was buried.

The third day he rose again, according to the Scriptures.

He ascended to heaven

and is seated at the right hand of the Father.

He will come again with glory

to judge the living and the dead.

His kingdom will never end.

And we believe in the Holy Spirit,

the Lord, the giver of life.

He proceeds from the Father and the Son,

and with the Father and the Son is worshiped and glorified.

He spoke through the prophets.

We believe in one holy catholic and apostolic church.

We affirm one baptism for the forgiveness of sins.

We look forward to the resurrection of the dead,

and to life in the world to come. Amen.

The more you study happiness, the more you uncover about the nature of happiness, going past the simple pleasures and understanding virtue, the more one image starts to stand out. God. Christianity is about happiness. This episode is about both. I’m going to explain Christianity. More than for you, this is for me. I want to reason some things out.

How do you be happy? Easy, just stop wanting things. The promotion, the new car, the six pack of abs, the girl. When you don’t want things, you are happy. It’s so simple.

How do you stop wanting things? The stoics said to practice discipline. The stoics were a smart bunch. “It is not the man who has too little, but the man who craves more, that is poor.” – Seneca.

Smart people, talented people, people with everything, have said to be virtuous. “Recommend virtue to your children; it alone, not money, can make them happy. I speak from experience.” – Beethoven.

Jesus, Christians, and other religious people have recommended virtue, which is the antithesis of vice. Many Christians were very smart.

“Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.” – Acts 2:38.

Most of religion is exactly this. The scripture is a how-to guide on how to be happy. Being virtuous is hard. It takes practice. Religion gives us a helping hand. God gives us strength. We ask him for strength. He reminds us when we slip, and he’s there to reward us when we do the right thing.

What’s the right thing? Being virtuous, following his commandments, not giving into vice. Be like Jesus. When we want to behave like Jesus, we want to be virtuous. When we want to be virtuous, we should try to act virtuous – like Jesus. When we act like Jesus, we do all the things that will keep us happy. Not just a momentary pleasure, but an unbreakable joy – that no one can take away from you.

Wisdom is happiness. YOLO is not. Don’t live life fast chasing fun will not lead to happiness. It will feel good, but the thrill is addicting, and mental addiction is the opposite of wisdom. John Milton said, “He who reigns within himself and rules passions, desires, and fears is more than a king.” The goal of wisdom – and the result, is everlasting mental, and spiritual freedom. I said that Christianity is about happiness. Well, Christianity is about wisdom.

Let’s dissect the Nicene Creed I started this with.

We believe in one God, the Father almighty, maker of heaven and earth, of all things seen and unseen.

We believe in one God. Not many. To believe in more than one god, as the pagan religions preach, is false for multiple reasons. One, the scriptures, the written testimony of those that preceded and followed Jesus, the ultimately wise being, say otherwise. And, as Christians, we believe Jesus was ultimately wise.

The second reason is secular. If you believe in multiple gods, you necessarily diminish the divine power associated with the one God. To honor multiple gods is to not be holding the priorities and honor of the one God as your ultimate priority. So don’t do it.

The pagan gods play a large part in the history of the world and the forming of religions and even in the Christian canon. This is because the pagan gods of the Greeks, Romans, Norse and others are used as an example to highlight the beauties of the world. The poetry muses, the hero warriors, and the gods of various natural elements – Aurora with her rose red hair – these are all used to paint a beautiful picture of human and nonhuman elements of life. However, when it comes to wisdom and eternal happiness, none of these gods hold a candle to the truth and beauty offered by the Christian God.

In fact, like idolizing anything – whether a career, a pretty girl, or you, the pagan gods offered a distraction from ultimate wisdom, and with that, ultimate happiness. If we focus our attention on becoming strong or pretty or artistic, this isn’t a bad thing necessarily. But it does take away from the attention we show to God – the attention we show to wisdom, and happiness right now.

For us and for our salvation he came down from heaven; he became incarnate by the Holy Spirit and the Virgin Mary, and was made human. He was crucified for us under Pontius Pilate; he suffered and was buried. The third day he rose again, according to the Scriptures.

CS Lewis wrote in Mere Christianity:

“The teacher is able to form the letters for the child because the teacher is grown-up and knows how to write. That, of course, makes it easier for the teacher, and only because it is easier for him can he help the child. If it rejected him because “it’s easy for grown-ups” and waited to learn writing from another child who could not write itself (and so had no “unfair” advantage), it would not get on very quickly. If I am drowning in a rapid river, a man who still has one foot on the bank may give me a hand which saves my life. Ought I to shout back (between my gasps) “No, it’s not fair! You have an advantage! You’re keeping one foot on the bank”? That advantage—call it “unfair” if you like—is the only reason why he can be of any use to me. To what will you look for help if you will not look to that which is stronger than yourself?”

Jesus proved the existence of Heaven when he rose from the dead. We are told this from the authority that is the Gospels and other scriptures. I often refer to authority as a bad thing. “Challenge authority.’ “Make your own decisions.” But we all believe, and must believe authority to some extent. Life would be chaos otherwise. To quote CS Lewis one more time,

“Ninety-nine per cent of the things you believe are believed on authority. I believe there is such a place as New York. I have not seen it myself. I could not prove by abstract reasoning that there must be such a place. I believe it because reliable people have told me so. The ordinary man believes in the Solar System, atoms, evolution, and the circulation of the blood on authority—because the scientists say so.”

We trust authority. Even the most punk rock teenagers trust some authority. It just may not align with the authority you follow. This leaves us with a choice. We can choose the authority that is God and his followers that profess their own Gospels of the truth. Or, we can believe those who disagree. When it comes to science it gets tricky. The goal of Christianity is eternal happiness through not wanting things but instead honoring God. The goal of science is to make possible our wants and desires. So while scientific facts are not wrong, neither is that which I’m saying about God and which the Gospels have reported. You and I can live in the material world but live for the immaterial. And we should.

We look forward to the resurrection of the dead, and to life in the world to come. Amen.

One of the virtues that is unique to Christianity is hope. This is a theological virtue, meaning it exists outside of the simply human virtues such as chastity and humility. In hope we look forward to more great things. Dante had many levels to his Heaven, and without hope we imit ourselves to the greatness available. Again, in secular speak, we limit our own happiness by not living virtuously, including with hope.

To hope, as a virtue, is not to have a Disney fantasy about the world or the after-life. Hope is to believe in the spiritual truths accounted for in the Bible. It is to understand the nature of happiness – all that I’ve said already, and to understand there is the ability to be more. You can be more virtuous, a better Christian, with more of Heaven to love. You can be happier.

I used to be an atheist. I was guided by truth and science. Those were my religions. I thought happiness was the ability to overcome my fears. But John Milton didn’t stop his saying when he called us to conquer our fears. He told us to overcome our passions and our desires as well.

I didn’t want to believe the poet. I worked so hard to become sexy and strong. Now he was telling me not to indulge in the passions that I’d worked so hard to become sexy so that I could indulge. Deep down, I knew he was right. I knew it wasn’t the right thing to have sex with women just because I could. I knew it wasn’t the right thing to sell a product for profit to someone who doesn’t need it, but that person hopes it will make them happier.

So, I started following the advice of the great poet. I read the Bible and loved it for the wisdom and the stories. Then I read Christian literature. The CS Lewis, Aquinas, and others. I started going to church. I loved everything that I was reading, and I saw the wisdom of it. As I outlined above, I came to understand happiness from a secular point of view. It kept leading more and more towards the teachings of Christianity. I was an atheist, but now God was closer than ever.

The last thing I did was to want Christianity. To want to be Christian is to want to love God. It’s to want to live virtuously so that we don’t want things. To honor the theological virtues of faith, charity, and, discussed, hope. Knowing these virtues are incredibly difficult, and wanting the support of God to help us stick to it. It was wanting to be Christian, more than anything, that made me Christian. It was this wanting, with the understanding of happiness and Christianity, that made me love God above all else.

God is real and omniscient.  A common argument is why do bad things happen if God knows they’re going to – if he has the power to stop them?  Choosing God must be voluntary. There has to be a choice involved. If there isn’t, we are all just robots on autopilot. What’s the point of that? There’s no honor there. But if we choose to honor God, when there’s so much else we can choose – powerful, tempting options, then there is glory.

This is also why forcing Christianity doesn’t work. Since it requires voluntary submission, this must be allowed at the individual level and societal level. A Big Brother government from Orwell did not allow Christianity, but it forced virtue. The virtue is meaningless if it is forced – again there is no honor or strength required.

So too the Nazis prescribed a Christian society. When Christianity is forced, it takes away the internal choice. By forcing the external, they made the internal less likely. Loving God isn’t just going through the motions. It’s about complete, voluntary submission to the greatness of God.

I leave you with a call to action. Stop wanting things, so that you will be happy today. If you want that, and it is very difficult, look to God for strength. Love God. Amen.

Literally Hitler – A Review of Mein Kampf

 I recently read Mein Kampf by Adolf Hitler. It was one of the most interesting books I ever read. I don’t necessarily recommend you read it. Let’s talk about it.

Obligatory disclaimer: Hitler was an evil person. He is responsible for the deaths of millions of innocent people, most famously Jews. Good Christians, and good people generally, don’t hate someone that isn’t of their religion or race. Hitler wasn’t a good person.

That said, Hitler, like all people, was a complex person. He was incredibly smart. He spent his youth reading all the books he could get his hands on, and developing an appreciation for arts and high culture. When he was 11, he spent the money he earned working a job to pay for operas and symphonies.

Hitler was a patriot and wanted the best for Germany from birth. His idea of “best” was quite unique for leaders of strong nations. Hitler was racist. That shouldn’t surprise anyone. But race was more than something to like and dislike and matter of preferences for Hitler. It was his ideology. And again, he was very smart, and his ideology was well thought out.

The man saw racism as a positive. His thesis was that race – our DNA and blood, contains not only physical and mental characteristics, but the capabilities of an individual. Intelligence, strength, creativity – these are all a part of our blood, which is passed from generation to generation.

Hitler saw the preservation of these characteristics as the most important function for humans. As some people are smarter than others, and more creative, and stronger, these people should breed with others that have favorable genetics so that their children will be even stronger, or at least not weaker. If someone has ultimate genetics, breeding with someone with inferior genes will weaken those genes. If preservation of superior genetics is your goal, you don’t want to do that.

He applied this to groups of people. Races of people. Adolf saw the Aryan as superior in creativity and intellect, and cited scientific and cultural reasons for this. Therefore, Aryans must breed with each other and not with other races.

I haven’t done much race research, and there isn’t that much of it – it’s such a taboo especially within academia that there isn’t much funding. Whether it’s true, scientifically or not, if the goal of your society is the preservation of your society’s genetics, then Hitler went about it in a good way.

He’s wrong when he tries to make it a Christian calling. To be Christian is to be Christ-like, and it’s a hard sell to try to convince me that Jesus would have called for the separation of blacks and the death of Jews. Everyone on the planet is capable of being Christian, and with that everyone is capable of living virtuously and being happy. To rob someone of this opportunity is decidedly non-Christian.

Hitler saw what he was doing as Christian because he envisioned the ultimate man – superior in intellect, strength, and creativity, as closer to God. Not in a way that he was closer to creating a God – just closer to the image of God. In that way, the individual would best be able to honor God, who we are created in the likeness of.

Christianity defines “likeness of God” as having the ability to choose right from wrong and to have the option of honoring all that is good. Hitler defined “likeness of God” as the human element – being closer to God in terms of physical and mental ability. He thought the man that is closest to God can do God the most honor, and that is worth it.

Because his Aryan race was deemed ultimate and closest to God, his race should realize the rewards of their superiority. They would have creative and material freedoms not available to others. Other races would be put in their place, and would be forced to stay there so that the Aryan would not be threatened. He proposed to enslave other races, such as black people. This slave class would work for the Aryan and not be allowed to interbreed. This would keep them in a state of servitude and also allow the “best” race the best spoils.

The Jews were a different sort of problem. They were competition. Highly intelligent and with a (well-reasoned) ability to survive struggle, Hitler saw the Jews as a threat to the Aryan in the “race” to comfort and the top of the hierarchy. There’s almost a recognition that they are doing good things that Hitler wished to be doing himself. So, rather than making them slaves, he sought to make them out as evil and have them eliminated.

Hitler did this by using propaganda. This was a very conscious maneuver. Hitler was well-read and had a great understanding of history and psychology. He used propaganda to persuade the masses. His book is a masterclass on propaganda and political influence. He brilliantly targeted his audience – the masses of the middle class and lower classes, to carry out his strategy. He did not make arguments to appeal to the intellectuals, but made his appeals to those suffering from economic hardship.

He blamed the hardships on the competing Marxist ideology which directly opposed into his thesis on race. Marxism was the ultimate evil according to Hitler. And the idea that people should be equally rewarded went directly against his idea that rewards would be handed out by race and, within that, merit.

Hitler isn’t wrong that Marxism is perhaps the most evil, harmful ideology ever invented. But the way he went about solving the Marxism problem was quite evil. What do they say about the road paved with good intentions?

The book gave me a new for the American Constitution. The Founding Fathers knew that if people are forced into a Christian world by tyrannical hands, that the individual would not be more likely to be Christian at heart. The choice that God leaves us must be made on our own accord. Hitler didn’t allow that for his people. The Founders did. They built the country on both individual freedom and strength, while Hitler built his on strength, intellect, and propaganda.

I prefer our way, although there are downsides to the American Constitution. Because of our liberal economic policy and freedoms of speech and media, the citizens are exposed to massive amounts of propaganda. While Hitler used the state, America uses television and advertisements to persuade the masses. This robs people of their ability to freely choose God (or not to) in similar fashion (psychologically speaking) as Goebbels’ pamphlets.

The book is fascinating. It’s biographical, and I’m always interested in reading how leaders of nations get into power and about their lives. Every president has a great story. Hitler’s no exception. It was hard to read because of the prejudice I had going in. I knew how evil he was and the destruction he caused to the Jews and the world. To continue reading and challenge myself to be objective was a battle and was rewarded.

It was rewarding to challenge my ideas and to be objective in challenging his. Again, they were well-reasoned. But it was also rewarding because there are some brilliant, wholesome ideas in his book that should not be ignored.

Hitler had theories on education that are still relevant today. He wrote the following on the study of history in high school:

Instruction in world history in the so-called high schools is even today in a very sorry condition. Few teachers understand that the study of history can never be to learn historical dates and events by heart and recite them by rote; that what matters is not whether the child knows exactly when this battle or that was fought, when a general was born, or even when a monarch (usually a very insignificant one) came into the crown of his forefathers. No, by the living God, this is very unimportant. To ‘learn’ history means to seek and find the forces which are the causes leading to those effects which we subsequently perceive as historical events.

At least when I was in high school, 85 years after this was written, we were still big on memorizing dates rather than learning to be critical of history and how we can learn lessons from understanding it.

He was not a big fan of foreign language being taught in lower levels of school, even though he knew that’s when foreign languages are best acquired. What is important is to learn your own language, and to understand the structure of languages. He didn’t want to the youth to learn French, and he wouldn’t want his Californian children to learn Spanish.

He was a big proponent of physical education. He thought that all youths should have two hours of gym time each day – an hour in the morning and evening. This would mold them into physically strong individuals and tamper energy that could be spent on less productive pursuits. He promoted general strength and aerobic training in addition to combat training. At young levels this meant boxing and Jiu Jitsu. When the war picked up, these students were physically ready to pick up a gun and fight.

Part of Hitler’s political idea was that of strength. The strength of the nation is of utmost importance in order to protect what is valued – in Nazi Germany that being race. This national strength relies on soundness of mind by leadership, strong individuals that are able to endure hardship, and technological superiority. While I disagree, and probably most disagree on his central value, Hitler’s Germany was a strong nation.

I recommend very smart people read this book. Like, really smart people. Not average, and not just smart. Kind of smart people with left leaning politics won’t get past the Jew stuff. Pretty smart people with right lean will agree with the reasoning, when you shouldn’t.

My other recommendation is we should work hard to protect Constitutional freedoms. They exist for a purpose that rewards every single citizen with the chance of happiness, a chance we don’t even have without them. America was founded by Christian rebels. They didn’t ask for conformity. The founders want us to rebel against tyranny. Tyranny in the form of oppressive government, in the form of corrupting ideologies – a la Marxism, and tyranny in the form of psychologically oppressive media.

Thoughts on wisdom

  • Wisdom is happiness. 
  • YOLO is not. Don’t live life fast chasing fun will not lead to happiness. It will feel good, but the thrill is addicting, and mental addiction is the opposite of wisdom. 
  • The goal of wisdom – and the result, is everlasting mental, and spiritual freedom. 
  • To start, think about what makes you happy. Seek to understand that. 
  • But, go deeper than that. Seek to overcome the insecurities that are keeping you from being happy – why do you want what you want? 
  • Got to be confident to do that. So find something to be confident in. 
  • Build a skill. A sport, play an instrument, write or paint, box or wrestle. If you don’t know what to do, get good at lifting weights. 
  • If you do have a hobby and skill you work at, you should still lift weights. 
  • Be positive. 
  • You can always choose your attitude. Choosing to be angry toward others is a deadly sin – meaning it destroys the soul. 
  • The soul is your capacity to be happy. Don’t destroy it. 
  • Also, being positive is just fun. Other people appreciate it. 
  • Develop social skills. Learn to talk to strangers, flirt, speak. Practice. 
  • Social skills aren’t completely necessary to develop wisdom. But you need to have monk-like discipline if you plan to develop wisdom without social skill. These skills help with confidence, pressing others to learn from their wisdom and challenge your own, overcoming insecurities, and finding love. 
  • Social skills, like all skills, develop with repetition. 
  • But not mindless repetition. Old people hit the Elliptical machine all the time and don’t lose weight. People drive every day and remain awful drivers. 
  • Conscious thought needs to go into your reps. You get stronger at the gym by adding weight to the barbell. You become better at skills by thinking about your failures and doing it differently next time. 
  • Social skills, overcoming wants, everything I talk about here, requires work. Most of it is internal, rather than external. 
  • External work can take away from internal work that’s more important. Don’t let it. 
  • Don’t be slothful. 
  • John Milton said, “He who reigns within himself and rules passions, desires, and fears is more than a king.” 
  • Insecurities are fears. Am I good enough for him? Am I good enough for her? Don’t have any of these. 
  • It’s only after you overcome your insecurities that you know the “real you”. 
  • Don’t be arrogant, vain. While it is not weakness in ability, it presents a weakness of the mind, and the spirit. 
  • Be honest in all you do. 
  • That’s why “just act yourself” is poor advice, unless you’re so wise as to understand it means to act uninhibited, with virtue and courage. 
  • Virtue? How’s that fit in? 
  • The first part of John Milton’s speech – passions, desires. Money, fame, women, drugs, rock n roll, status. Power. These are all things we get passionate about, that instill desire. That desire seeks to have power over us. 
  • That desire – that temptation toward passion or things or feelings, in Christian terms, is demonic. The demon tempts. 
  • Christianity is true. 
  • When someone or something has power over us, we aren’t free to live how we want. 
  • Institutions, people, do not have your interest in mind. 
  • They are out to profit, to meet an admissions metric, and to look good for their boss. Mostly, they are out to make themselves look good to others so that they then feel good. 
  • The narcissist, the adolescent, does this. He puts on an external appearance to protect an inner ego. Without the good looks, the money, the status, the narcissist is alone. And the narcissist is not cool with that. 
  • Do not envy what others have. 
  • The wise man is happy alone. He is content with what he has, no matter how much or little. 
  • Material things – promiscuous sex, status, wealth – these are all advertised to us because they feel good. Because they make us feel good, when we are rewarded with these pleasures, it doesn’t make us not want them, it makes us want more. 
  • “It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.” – Mark 10:25
  • Do not be gluttonous. 
  • When something internal has power over us, we aren’t free to feel how we want. 
  • Our own psychology doesn’t have our interest in mind. I’m interested in happiness. Our own psychology drives us to survive and reproduce, not to be happy. 
  • Intimacy is a great thing. But it can distract from internal wisdom. Don’t let it. Enjoy your relationships, enjoy sex. But don’t be left wanting. 
  • Never want. Never lust. 
  • “Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many.” – Matthew 7:13
  • Most of us work our whole lives at a corporation so we can retire in a modest home and live like bums – sleeping in, reading, writing, hanging with family, and fishing. You can do that now. 
  • There’s an old fable of an Indian Chief. “Indian Chief “Two Eagles was asked by a white U.S. government official, “You have observed the white man for 90 years.  You’ve seen his wars and his technological advances. You’ve seen his progess, and the damage he’s done.” 

The Chief nodded in agreement.

The official continued, “Considering all these events, in your opinion, where did the white man go wrong?”

The Chief stared at the government official then replied,

“When white man find land, Indians running it, no taxes, no debt, plenty buffalo, plenty beaver, clean water.  Women do all the work, medicine man free, Indian man spend all day hunting and fishing all night having sex.”

Then the Chief leaned back and smiled, “Only white man dumb enough to think he could improve system like that.”

  • That’s how the proverb ends. I propose an addendum. 
  • “Then the white man leaned back and smiled, “Only Indian man dumb enough to think he could maintain a beautiful system like that without having to fight for it.” 
  • You can be happy by yourself, meditating and virtuous, but the system you create that allows for that can come under threat. You can be happy, but if you want more people to experience that happiness, you need to help them. 
  • Material power doesn’t bring freedom. 
  • “Thereupon many statesmen and philosophers came to Alexander with their congratulations, and he expected that Diogenes of Sinope also, who was tarrying in Corinth, would do likewise. But since that philosopher took not the slightest notice of Alexander, and continued to enjoy his leisure in the suburb Craneion, Alexander went in person to see him, and he found him lying in the sun. Diogenes raised himself up a little when he saw so many people coming towards him, and fixed his eyes upon Alexander. And when that monarch addressed him with greetings, and asked if he wanted anything, “Yes,” said Diogenes, “stand a little out of my sun.” It is said that Alexander was so struck by this, and admired so much the haughtiness and grandeur of the man who had nothing but scorn for him, that he said to his followers, who were laughing and jesting about the philosopher as they went away, “But truly, if I were not Alexander, I wish I were Diogenes.” and Diogenes replied “If I wasn’t Diogenes, I would be wishing to be Diogenes too.” – Wikipedia
  • How do you remove the shackles of passion and desire? 
  • Don’t be greedy. Stop wanting things. 
  • How do you stop wanting things? 
  • The stoics said to practice discipline. The stoics were very smart. 
  • “It is not the man who has too little, but the man who craves more, that is poor.” – Seneca
  • Smart people, talented people, people with everything, have said to be virtuous. 
  • “Recommend virtue to your children; it alone, not money, can make them happy. I speak from experience.” – Beethoven
  • Jesus, Christians, and other religious people have recommended virtue, which is the antithesis of vice. Many Christians were very smart. 
  • “Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.” – Acts 2:38
  • Most of religion is exactly this. The scripture is a how-to guide on how to be happy. 
  • Being virtuous is hard. It takes practice. Religion gives us a helping hand. 
  • God gives us strength. We ask him for strength. He reminds us when we slip, and he’s there to reward us when we do the right thing. 
  • What’s the right thing? Being virtuous, following his commandments, not giving into vice. 
  • Be like Jesus. 
  • When we want to behave like Jesus, we want to be virtuous. 
  • When we want to be virtuous, we should try to act virtuous – like Jesus. 
  • When we act like Jesus, we do all the things that will keep us happy. 
  • Not just a momentary pleasure, but an unbreakable joy – that no one can take away from you. 
  • It’s everlasting joy. It’s heaven on Earth. And God is with you. 

A Demon’s Story

A demon spawns

A child is born at least as free as any

He smiles and laughs and with others he plays

Not burdened by fear or insecurity 

Then he starts to go a different way


Hormones kick in and then he wants the girl

He sees a scanty dressed one on tv

Father comments that she’d be quite a whirl

Two demons seek inside his soul to see


Weakness’s an invite heard by evil ears

But weakness is called strength by his own dad

Wanting to look good to his dad and peers

The boy decides he wants the girl unclad


In seed of want the demon makes his home

Grows wants and fears the boy will always own.


Child without demons

Born of parents in a small Christian home

He wakes before the sun and starts to play

Play and wonder are all that’s on his dome

Nothing bothers him in any way


He rides his bike in the neighborhood

Then sets up toys and has them fight

Ties a dead snail to a firecracker 

And gets the little fuse ready to ignite


There’s so much to do it’s hard to be bored

Left alone with nothing but sticks and stones

Transformed to pirates raiding foreign shores

Burying the dead’s dismembered bones


No insecurity and not a fool

But demons wait for him to come to school.


Hormonal Teenager

The summer of freedom comes to an end

Middle is over and high school starts

Homecoming and prom right around the bend

And drinking and smoking in public parks


The girls bodies begin to develop

The boys’ delay but their interest does not

A few muster courage to say what’s up

But mostly the couples look over in want


This is all natural and good and fine

Until enter pics from web and tv 

A demon snake slithering on the vine

To deliver the apple from the tree


There’s little protecting the innocent 

When corporate execs must pay their rent. 


Adult fully demon

He goes to the office to make his bread 

Targeting minds to make another sale

When other products they can choose instead 

Quarterly figures’  th’only Mary hailed


Happy hour begins at the bar or home

Fi’lls his glass with Jamison and coke

It helps him feel different than a drone

Makes fun of colleagues that try to say no


Every Friday night he hits the bar

Buys drinks for his boys and ladies unmet

He tells them he can play a sweet guitar

And tries to convince them to get undressed


Not using any higher faculty

Attracting more society casualties.


Adult repents

Happiness the goal was never achieved

Doubting everything he’d ever been told

He’s told to try out Christianity

And try to let a new story unfold


His old habits since childhood are ingrained

But trusting the source he decides

That with virtue and trust in God’s aid

He’ll cast out the demons that lay inside


He brushes the dust off his old Bible

The words of the old prayers start to come back

Renounces old material idols

Sincere he modifies the way he acts


Deciding to put his trust in the Lord

He’ll never again be alone or bored.


Devil be gone

The man is daily reminded of sin

Easy to spot in ads fashion and sorts

It takes newfound strength and believing in 

God to not give in to lusty consort


He wills it and remains forever strong

Spots the demons inside him but he trusts

In God which makes him feel he does belong

To something better than these demon lusts


Harder than anything he’s ever done

Like Job he’s torn from all he knew and loved

Like Job he’s not deterred and is now one

With Christ and accepts the symbolic dove


One with the Lord Job is granted heaven

Not held by worldly chains or whims of men.

Love Poems

I’ve been doing a lot of reading since the whole virus started. Here are some poems that I wrote after reading a few books.

Winston and Julia

Their love was forbidden by unjust law

Abstinence and virtue forced from youth

All remaining was sterile sex no raw

Lust and emotion that make acts uncouth


To rebel is to choose love and to live

To choose beauty and truth in each other

When to fall in line our power we give

Not to a lover but to big brother 


While virtue today calls for abstinence 

Virtue in another time‘s to rebel

To sneak around and love with permanence

And deny authority that tries to meddle


All is for sex and sex is for power

Our love destroys your ivory tower. 


Faust and Gretchen 

Faust was given charm and understanding

Two things women happen to appreciate 

When Gretchen met him in the early evening

She was attracted to the lower fate


Before that she was perfectly chaste 

A strong believer in the Lord’s way she 

N’ere prior let a devil make her waste 

Her virtue over a moment of glee


But Faust was the tempter that brought her down

From her heavenly journey to the whore

In her single choice the devil found 

A victim’s home from which more sin was bore


So too Faust never found eternal joy

His worldly power sought could only destroy.


Clytemnestra and Agamemnon 

She married a man to become a queen

To a king who ruled without a carrot

It was next to this ruler she‘d be seen 

A position of power no one quits


Her choice of husband was never dishonest

He had his flaws in that he was greedy 

She knew from the start when she found her best

Her man would not see her singularly 


She wanted the power she wanted fame

Agamemnon gave her all these things

He sacrificed their child to make a gain

But returned home to plotted ambush waiting


Clytemnestra was transformed to a witch 

Demon owned, incapable of happiness.

3 Poems

The green grass

I swat a little bug and scratched an itch

Without looking up from the book I read

From under my lawn chair on which I sit

Foreign invader uniting enemies


A whole ecosystem getting disturbed

By my presence and yet I still complain

When under my strong foot sit murdered

Colonies that didn’t see the raid


So much life so much beauty

Exists for free in my own lawn

If we look close we see the vibrant scene

That teems with life starting from early Dawn


Whose rose red fingers light what’s on the floor

A call to action no insects ignore. 



We drink when we’ve cause for celebration 

We drink in surrender and in defeat

We drink to overcome inhibition 

And when we’re out with no plan but to eat


We’re blinded by Circe’s luring beauty 

A promised pleasure if we surrender

With each drink we’re turned to animal

Our wit with vodka thrown in the blender 


Drink makes the liar a more honest man 

The dull man more charming in his rhymes

According to his insuff’rable clan

Relieving all weakness til morning shines 


A strong man stands up to this lovely nymph 

And doesn’t need to charm a boring simp.




Salt gives flavor to grilled steak and veggies

Cooking prepped and on your meal is topped

Preserving strength until you sit ready

It makes life richer without drinking hops


The shaker provides an interaction

We share and nourish together

Knowing not your taste bud reaction

Discriminating not to him or her


Salt then dissolves and is forever nothing

The world’s a better place a good mother

Who never asked for praise or offering

Dying a completed life for others


To overindulge is never its fault

Be generous and be silent, be salt.

Trump made an appropriate response to corona virus

Donald Trump made a controversial statement on Twitter when the corona virus started making its way into the news and daily life. He compared it to the flu. “Nothing is shut down.. Life goes on.” 


He downplayed the event. Even though the virus was spreading across China outside of China, and the death rate was higher than the flu, and it was more contagious than the flu, Trump tweeted that it’s not a big deal and to carry on as usual. 

Did Trump want old people to die? Did he want the economy to grind to a halt? Did he actually think the Chinese were lying and that it wasn’t a bad illness? 

No. He didn’t. Trump has more information than anyone on the planet. He had advisors that told him this is no flu. He also had advisors that told him what would happen if things shut down – life would never be the same. Someone had to make the statement he did. It couldn’t have come from a medical professional – since it is a disease to take seriously, and it had to come from someone high up in his organization. It took courage to say that it’s just a flu, when he and everyone else knew it was not just a flu. 

America depends on the financial markets. It’s our competitive edge over other countries. Our markets allow for ingenuity and technological advancement, top colleges, and enough top industry and financial gatekeepers to attract the brightest students, employees, and entrepreneurs from all over the world. It’s this that keeps us ahead of China and other nations in arms and money races. Without dominance in arms and money, the US takes a backseat to nations that allow for fewer individual freedoms to decide international policy for others. We don’t want that. Trump knows we don’t want that. 

Our financial system was hanging on by a thread. Money had been pumped into it for decades, incentivizing reckless spend, inefficient hiring, but also innovation. And it gave those inefficient employees a chance to make some money so they could spend it on things that have to be made by someone else. Thus the economy keeps moving. It all depended on belief that the dollar is better spent elsewhere than held on to. Which, when money is pumped into the economy which makes inflation rally, it makes sense to do. When that money is moving around and not held onto, innovation is incentivized by those dollars. 

I said Trump had courage because he made a promise to try his hardest to keep life going on as we know it. That meant a call on individual lives from people who will get sick and die because of lack of action in shutting things down. However, it could also mean the markets crash and people lose their jobs, savings, homes, and livelihoods. This is what Trump was seeking to protect in his tweet. 

His actions weren’t courageous because it was the right thing to do. His actions were courageous because it’s what *most of you* wanted to happen, but couldn’t admit publicly. So you left the President to say it for you. Trump did a dangerous thing by tweeting it’s just a flu. 

Instead of the virus killing off a 14% of the population, most of which is unproductive over a few months, which would be horrible and have major world consequences, we shut down the financial markets. Now we’re going to face mass unemployment and an economy that will never get back to where it was. 

Lives would end over the illness and more because they weren’t prepared. But it was the last Hail Mary thrown so that you, basic girl and haze bro, could get your pumpkin spice latte and IPA. Without the latte and IPA that you can show to your friends on Instagram, you are without meaning and direction. Trump tried to save you from that. 

It could never work. 

Stupid Believers

This was fun to write. 

It’s interesting how propaganda works. How many of you are religious? Believers of a book written 2000 years ago, long before modern science began to uncover worldly truths? 

I’m on your side here. Let’s make fun of the rest of the world. 

Religious propaganda has influenced billions of people. It influenced the founding fathers of the United States and it influenced the Bible Belt – the southern states that are stereotyped as not being as intelligent as us on the coasts. 

It’s the atheists, the agnostics, the non-believers, that are better than this cheap propaganda. 

Sorry, “better than”. 

You see, atheists, and the classes they populate, fall prey to another kind of propaganda. Advertising. 

These dumb hicks from ‘bama and east California, they don’t fall prey to your ads. They see an ad for an iPhone 13 and say, “Y’all don’t need that, y’already got a phone. That just ain’t no good.” 

The superior in intellect, those that resemble the founding fathers in courage and wisdom, but choose to write blogs to carry out their revolution, they say something similar, “You don’t need a new iPhone. The utility of adding three cameras to the back is not worth the opportunity cost of working weeks or more likely months at a job that doesn’t care for you. Plus the dopamine rush of having a shiny new object to show off to the neighbors won’t do me, or the neighbor any good.” 

It’s you heathen middle-brows, the average person, the basic bitch and hazy bro that gives into advertising. You, smart as you are for having disproved a man that peacefully recommended not wanting things and said by practicing virtue you can be better than your animal instincts. You told him he didn’t exist. 

In doing so, you reinforced your own ideas and your own shitty behavior. You are relegating yourselves to animals, prone to emotional whim and carnal desire. You let your lusts and fears drive your behavior, which makes you open to manipulation by marketing departments, which you are eager to see what they produce for you next so that you can incrementally raise your status over your neighbor. 

There’s a better way. I figured it out, and so did those Trump loving, gun toting rednecks down South. 

They are more capable of experiencing happiness than you. 

Day 2 of the Quarantine

Yo! Today is day two of the stay-at-home-except-to-go-to-the-store quarantine. I’m loving it. I’ve got good books. My brothers are here to hang. I’ve got good food, and a lot of it. And I can write. And I’ve got some thoughts. 

With that, a poem: 


Corona virus is a terrible plague

Sent from God he’s no longer being vague

He wants you to denounce old sick ways

So that your moral soul will not decay


We are all materialistic slaves

But the road to riches is brightly paved

Not in gold or green but with virtue

Which we can celebrate under curfew


It’s this virtue that overcomes all wants

Want for wealth and sex will no longer haunt

Mind and body when you choose otherwise

Just follow the Lord, and life never dies


Fire and brimstone are being thrown at us

Read old books and celebrate Christmas!



Corona virus isn’t a terrible plague in the numbers it’s killing. It’s a bad illness as far as that goes. It’s a terrible plague because of what it’s doing to the financial markets. That’s a plague I can get on board with. 

Yeah, I’m rooting for destruction to the financial markets. Fuck your money. 

The financial markets have been ruining people for decades. The markets promised baby boomers hope as they worked for decades to make a strong retirement: images of beaches and fast cars and fine wine. These cars and wine were sold as happiness. Without these, there is no happiness. That’s how they were sold. 

The generation skipped morality and boosted divorce rates, single-parent homes, adultery, and time spent in the office. Morality, Chistian values couldn’t compete with the shiny television ads that targeted, with precision, the insecurities of these aging heathens. Their lust for power, status, and sex had been building along with an economy that depended on these lusts since their youth. It became louder with each new technology they saw introduced. 

Millennials are next. There’s some hope that our generation can turn away – we can drop our hope in the financial markets to save us. This is my call to action: stop depending on financial markets for your happiness. 

My call to action is easy. I’m just asking that you stop doing something. We’re all so lazy (I read Netflix-use statistics). You don’t need to do anything. Millennials have been brainwashed to lust after sex and status from the moment they were born into this world by indoctrinated parents. They have a lot of unlearning to do, but this financial destruction is good for our souls. 

What’s going to happen long term?

One of two things will happen. The markets will be flooded with cheap injections by the Federal Reserve and things will slowly ramp up to where they have been. That will only happen if enough money is injected and confidence is restored. I don’t think that will happen. I think most boomers will be too timid to inject money back into a system they know can take it all away in a moment. That’s a lot of money that won’t make its way back into the markets. Also, buyers would have to get back to buying, and buying everything. Jobs would have to rebound so people can spend. 

Another option, one I’m rooting for, is a revolution of sorts. I want people to see the follies of their trust in an external system. I want people to turn toward the values I recommend and Jesus practiced. 

If this happens, we would see smaller communities built on trust and helping each other. The building of small, self-sufficient economies that would survive a strong downturn. 

As far as the day-to-day, life is good. I’m excited to be “working from home” I mean working from home. I’ve got books to read, starting with Dune. Let me know what you’re reading. I’m barely talking to people so I’d like to hear from you 😉 

How do you have fun these days? 

The quarantine is an  opportunity. A long one, it turns out. Read, do pushups and sprints, get some sun, and write out your thoughts. Don’t write for attention, just write because it’s a healthy way to meditate and articulate your thoughts. And to synthesize thoughts from all the reading you’re doing, which should be a lot. Call your family and tell them you love them. Strengthen the relationships you do have. Hold everything you have close, and be grateful for it. 

Come out of this corona thing stronger than you were. Remember, it’s strength that allows you to endure pain, including tough times. Be strong mentally, physically, and emotionally, and you are king. Or queen. Ladies. 

I want revolution. I want the financial markets to be destroyed, along with trillions in retirement plans. And yet, I’m an optimist. 

More individuals will find happiness as they are shown the false promises of glory that are advertisements for material things and beautiful retirements. Don’t wait for retirement. Be happy now. Be happy by not wanting things. Stop depending on financial markets, and everything else external for your joy. Love yourself, Christ, and others. 

Blue trees are death

My company painted some trees out in our courtyard with blue paint. Apparently, this refers to an “art” project that Konstantin Dimopoulos started as a call to action about environmentalism. I don’t like it. 

The problem with blue trees is it’s glorifying the unnatural. When we call attention to the unnatural and dare to call it beautiful, we glorify what’s not natural. By doing so, we diminish the beauty that is everywhere. By doing that, we become less practiced, less capable, and less wanting to find beauty in the natural, the ordinary. You end up with fake tits, heavy makeup, and blue trees. 

I don’t like it as a form of protest either. I get it – “It’s not natural, but neither is the damage we’re doing to the environment with our pollution.” 

A far better form of protest would be if Dimopoulos and my company planted a huge flower garden and made a plaque saying these flowers won’t be able to flourish here or in other parts of the world if we continue letting cows fart, or whatever. Make it beautiful and inspire us to action. Not sickly and weird and make us think of what’s not naturally beautiful. Just just advertising 101. 

This isn’t creating. This isn’t art. It’s debasing what’s perfect. Art is about creating something beautiful. This is just warping something beautiful into something that’s less so. We want things to be what they aren’t, instead of finding beauty in what is. It’s strange to me: as lazy as humans are, it takes far more work to make the unnatural beautiful than it does to appreciate the beauty in what’s natural. Of course, I’m speaking about physical ease, not mental. I guess it’s hard to accept things as they are. I sometimes forget how brilliant I am. 

Just kidding, I don’t forget. Because I’m brilliant. 

It’s important to find beauty in truth – in what’s real. When we find beauty in truth, in the natural world, we can appreciate everything in life. We don’t need to change the external world to fit how we think it should present itself. We can only be happy when we enjoy what’s true. 

Humans destroy many things that are natural and good. We destroy currency by printing more of it and destroy the value of hard work (shameful Bitcoin plug). We destroy the beauty and paradoxes involved in sex when we print and mass distribute porn. Blue trees?

My point in all this, really, is don’t get a tattoo. 

And now, a poem.

The trees full of beauty and full of life
Were painted grotesque blue to symbolize
That life can be reduced by human strife
Made to suffer right before our own eyes

In destroying worldly natural sight
The object is made a tree no longer
Provider of housing and shade from light
But turned into a monstrous disorder

We call attention to the destruction
Through this destructive painted shade of blue
The trees were fine before our obstruction
Like perfect trees do not get a tattoo

Trees painted blue better symbolize pain
We feel when what’s natural we must stain.